Rain is my mortal enemy. Rain and mid 40s temperatures in JUNE (I had to wear gloves!) is at atrocity that makes me want to kill.
At least I focused my dark feelings on the right stuff, like hating on my country for having this kind of climate and hating on the stupid, stupid people at work.
Now I want to cancel plans I have with my friend to check out an outdoors restaurant fair in a park in the city (or fuck, big art museum is nearby, that’s dry and warm) to see Avengers agan. Because I have mad Bruce sympathies and feels (though I don’t change into a big green monster).
I drew this after reading something Mark Ruffalo said in an interview along the lines of “Bruce finding his family” after making friends with Tony. So in my mind, after the war and when Tony and Bruce rode off, Tony took him home to beg Pepper to keep him.
She said yes.
As long as he cleans up any mess he may make if he Hulks out.
God it was, wasn’t it? It just proves that everything Whedon touches turns into magic gold of awesome. Can we have sequel plz?
Avengers Bruce was really great and loveable. (Hgnghg, so many awesome scenes I can’t mention them all.) I wont even acknowledge those other Hulk movies now. But yeah, there was some awesome character and team dynamics in the whole movie. The kind of stuff I aspire to emulate as a writer. (Natasha *is* awesome. So, it’s okay. I felt the same.)
PS. You did stay under after the very end of alllll the credits, right? The bonus there…
I find it insulting when people insist to a suicidal person that “they have so much to live for,” and that “they are stronger” than their suicidal impulse. As if the person in question isn’t entirely aware of those things, as if the chemical, neural imbalances or possibly external factors in them that are creating those feelings can easily be “overcome” if only they’re “strong” enough. Does that imply that they reason they’re suicidal in the first place is because they’re not strong? That they’re weak, in fact, for feeling the way that they do? It is not encouraging or helpful to say these things to a suicidal person, in my opinion. It smacks of shaming them; “oh, nothing’s really wrong, you’d be just fine if only you were strong enough. You should get on that.”
Suicidal people who are still suicidal and not dead have already proven their strength, as far as I’m concerned. And even those who commit suicide and “succeed” in the end can’t fairly be discounted as weak - everyone makes mistakes, sometimes deadly ones, and theirs wasn’t even their fault provided it was inspired by a mental illness. I’ve had plenty of people try to bring me back from the brink of a devastating depression by telling me that I’m so much stronger than it, and I can safely say that all I felt in those moments was shame, for not being strong enough to simply not feel that way. I’m not trying to speak for anyone else, but as far as I’m concerned, hearing that hurts more than it helps when you’re that low. So fuck you, I don’t need to hear that I’m stronger than my depression. I knew that already, it doesn’t change how I feel. You can’t sprinkle magic sparkle unicorn words over a chemical imbalance and make it go away. Don’t trivialize, invalidate, what I’m going through like that.
